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I’m home

Posted in complaining, News with tags , on May 5, 2009 by cuttydarke

I got back home on Saturday.  Still pretty sore but I’m stepping down the dose of the painkillers.  I am drinking a lot of cup-a-soup and boveril but I’m not hungry.  At all.  So I suppose that’s working.

Anyway, typing is doing my back in so that’s enough for that now.


Brief hospital update.

Posted in News with tags , on April 25, 2009 by cuttydarke

Purely for your information.

I will be going into hospiatal on Monday morning.  I will be in Ward 33 of ARI.  I will be having gastric bypass surgery on Tuseday morning.  I will be in hospital for 5 to 7 days, probably.  I will be bored to tears for most of it.

Some actual news for once.

Posted in News with tags , on April 24, 2009 by cuttydarke

Well I have my date for surgery.  I go into hospital on the 27th (that’s Monday).  If all goes well I’ll be going into surgery on Tuseday morning.

I should be rejoicing but actually there’s a part of me that’s convinced that I’m going to die.  Not that this means anything.  I’m like this every time I have to fly and both times I was pregnant.

I suppose what I’m really scared of is the certainty of change.  Which sounds odd since the only certainty in life is change.  But there are some changes that are more than superficial.  To some extent I did die in labour.  The me that existed before I had children no longer exists.  I am a new version of myself.  After the surgery I will again be a different person.  I’m not sure that anyone else will notice the difference but I will.

Part of me fears this change so much that I’ve been looking for excuses not to go ahead with the surgery.  And that is madness.  There isn’t really any other choice.  Well there is but they’re no sort of choices at all.  If I want to get my children back or my fibromyalgia to get better or do anything truly useful with my life then I need to have the surgery.  And if I die on the table then some might say my children will have a lucky escape.  I might even agree with them.

But of course the chances of me actually dying are very low.  The team opperating are all specialists and in the last year I’ve been loosing weight and I’ve been sticking to the pre-op diet.  Also I have no heart problems and strong lungs.  Now why doesn’t any of that sound convincing to me.

More complaining

Posted in craft, Kids, News with tags , , on April 1, 2009 by cuttydarke

Not much more to say today.  I haven’t done much today at all except work on blankets that I’m making for the kids in case they do have to go into foster care.  I want them to have something comforting to remind them of me.

I forgot to mention that my daughter, currently stuck out in the country with her Granny, has chicken pox.  Poor thing.  So far she is bearing up well and isn’t scratching too much.  My son is sure to get it too eventually but so far no sign of it.

Frankly I’m a bit worried about my Mum having to look after them both.  She’s suck in the house with them.  She can’t go out because she can’t take them with her and she can’t leave them behind because she’s got no-one to leave them with.  I can’t even go and help much.  My Mum’s bathroom is upstairs and I can’t do stairs and It’s hard to go for even a short visit because it hurts so much getting on and off the country buses.  Nevertheless me and my other half will be going out for a visit tomorrow.  I’ll just have to take the painkillers and put up with the side effects.

I really need to learn to drive.

In other news I finally got some information about my forthcoming surgery last week.  Apparently the administrators at the hospital trust were trying to drag their feet on the grounds that weight-loss surgery isn’t important.  Excuse me – I have a silicone balloon in my stomach that you lot put there and it’s supposed to come out in six months (been in nearly 7 months already).  According to the doctor I spoke to they had to “back the administrators into a corner with pointy sticks”, his actual words.

Anyway I am now definately on the theatre list, penciled in for 30th April but it won’t necessarily be on that exact date.

There’s probably more I’ve forgotton to say but right now I don’t really care.

Posted in complaining, News, writing with tags , on October 2, 2008 by cuttydarke

Hi again.

I’ve had another couple of articles published. One on Roleplaying and another one on 30 day novel writing.

I’m still recovering from my surgery but I’m getting better. I’m able to eat solids now but only in very small amounts.

I’m looking forward to November and NaNoWriMo. I’ve been officially named the Municipal Liason for Aberdeen which now has it’s own reigonal lounge. Unfortunately the NaNoWriMo site still seems to be down. Oh well, we’ve got the whole month to prepare.

Posted in complaining, writing with tags on September 29, 2008 by cuttydarke

Well I’m almost back to eating solids. I’ve managed a bit of writing and I may even list some new items in the shop.

I really didn’t expect that it would take me this long to get back in the swing. Of course it doesn’t help that my beloved’s computer is dying a slow death so he’s taken to running second life on mine. Oh well.

More soon.

I’m Alive!

Posted in News with tags on September 24, 2008 by cuttydarke

I am still alive. Yay!

I am back home after surgery. Sorry the blog went quiet for a bit but I wasn’t really up to doing much. I’m still not but I thought I should post something.

Back to normal soon I hope