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Word Festival

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , on May 15, 2009 by cuttydarke

Back home after spending time at the Word Festival at Aberdeen University.

It’s a great little festival and the second largest book festival in Scotland. But it seems to be largely unknown in most of the city.

There’s a fascinating selection of talks and events but for me the best thing is the Word Cafe.

More later. Tired now.


I’m home

Posted in complaining, News with tags , on May 5, 2009 by cuttydarke

I got back home on Saturday.  Still pretty sore but I’m stepping down the dose of the painkillers.  I am drinking a lot of cup-a-soup and boveril but I’m not hungry.  At all.  So I suppose that’s working.

Anyway, typing is doing my back in so that’s enough for that now.

Brief hospital update.

Posted in News with tags , on April 25, 2009 by cuttydarke

Purely for your information.

I will be going into hospiatal on Monday morning.  I will be in Ward 33 of ARI.  I will be having gastric bypass surgery on Tuseday morning.  I will be in hospital for 5 to 7 days, probably.  I will be bored to tears for most of it.

Some actual news for once.

Posted in News with tags , on April 24, 2009 by cuttydarke

Well I have my date for surgery.  I go into hospital on the 27th (that’s Monday).  If all goes well I’ll be going into surgery on Tuseday morning.

I should be rejoicing but actually there’s a part of me that’s convinced that I’m going to die.  Not that this means anything.  I’m like this every time I have to fly and both times I was pregnant.

I suppose what I’m really scared of is the certainty of change.  Which sounds odd since the only certainty in life is change.  But there are some changes that are more than superficial.  To some extent I did die in labour.  The me that existed before I had children no longer exists.  I am a new version of myself.  After the surgery I will again be a different person.  I’m not sure that anyone else will notice the difference but I will.

Part of me fears this change so much that I’ve been looking for excuses not to go ahead with the surgery.  And that is madness.  There isn’t really any other choice.  Well there is but they’re no sort of choices at all.  If I want to get my children back or my fibromyalgia to get better or do anything truly useful with my life then I need to have the surgery.  And if I die on the table then some might say my children will have a lucky escape.  I might even agree with them.

But of course the chances of me actually dying are very low.  The team opperating are all specialists and in the last year I’ve been loosing weight and I’ve been sticking to the pre-op diet.  Also I have no heart problems and strong lungs.  Now why doesn’t any of that sound convincing to me.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Posted in complaining, Kids, News with tags , on April 5, 2009 by cuttydarke

Well today I had to go see my daughter off at the airport.  She’s off to stay with her other Granparents for a week and a half.  I miss her more already even though she was staying with my Mum.

On a more positive note I may have discovered a talent for 7 card stud.  But it’s too early to tell.

Not much more to say at the moment.  I’m feeling rather flat.